Rehab

Had dinner @Bondi Beach in The Curve with Hao and Yng. I love those quality times with my closest friends, it's like so warm..and we usually won't be hesitate to talk about anything.

After dinner, went over to Scarlet since Chiu Wai was there. Tumpang a while, danced a little and took few cups. It was my first time visiting Scarlet, not impressed much though, the song can't make me feel like dancing, I even heard Linkin Park's song, lol. Spent an hour over there then off to home.

Looking at the reflection of myself in the mirror, I saw myself, looked so pale. Things shouldn't be this way, I tell myself, but it has became the truth already. I know I shouldn't be thinking so much now but I just couldn't stop myself thinking the old times. I'm just too care about what they said, what they promised, somehow, they're not like really care about it anyway. I felt my heart cracked. I can hardly breath and finally I broke down into tears. Some people would think I may be over reacted on this but I can tell you, this is the only thing can beat me down.

I was standing there so strong all this while and now I can't take it no more, it has been such a long time since I cried. Somehow, I know the tears wouldn't help anything, the shit is still there, is there waiting for me either to fix it, or just let it to be like that. But I've done anything I can do to fix this matter, I've tried so hard to make things right, to make them stay, but they don't seemed appreciate it. Like Yng said, I've done what should be done.

No, I'm no longer emo. Am in the process of 'recovering' now. Since it's useless to do anything to fix the matter, now I try to do something to rehab my heart.